“I dare not utter the words ― because of the blasphemy”

So many are feeling just like Agnes Bojaxhiu –Mother Teresa did, when she wrote her letters to GOD~ This is an excerpt from one of her letters.

I call, I cling, I want ― and there is no One to answer ― no One on Whom I can cling ― no, No One. ― Alone … Where is my Faith ― even deep down right in there is nothing, but emptiness and darkness ― My God ― how painful is this unknown pain ― I have no Faith ― I dare not utter the words and thoughts that crowd in my heart ― and make me suffer untold agony.

So many unanswered questions live within me afraid to uncover them― because of the blasphemy ― If there be God ― please forgive me ― When I try to raise my thoughts to Heaven ― there is such conviction emptiness that those very thoughts return like sharp knives & hurt my very soul. ― I am told God loves me ― and yet the reality of darkness and coldness and emptiness is so great that nothing touches my soul. ― Mother Teresa (1910-1997)